Today I broke up with my boyfriend. Hmm, interesting. I had attempted to break up with him before, but he didnt really accept it so today I was more firm.
He acted as though I was the devil, but I think I did the better thing. I ignored him and refused to really discuss being open to a relationship because that is how I felt. I knew if I saw him in person that I would just feel bad and to be honest I do not think you should EVER be with someone because you feel bad. I am such a soft person and I hate to cause anyone pain so standing next to someone and seeing them suffer would be hard for me, but he caused me to suffer a great deal.
I generally dont talk to people about these issues because I just take a mental note and discover if it is part of the persons personality or not. He always hated that I didnt want to spend a lot of time with him and that I wasnt going to do everything all the time with him. He also got a little bit jealous. I know people say oh its normal, but he said it in smart ass ways that I really hated. He was also demanding. It was like if I did not agree view points he tried to convert me to his so it resulted in me and him never talking about interesting topics. See I love politics, but I believe my view is my view and not everyone has to believe that. He on the other hand does not. The last time we discussed politics he told me that he could never look at me the same as a person..- Hint im a little Republican where he is a raging socialist. Hmmm.
I feel bad hurting someone I really do because if there is one thing I know it is that when you love someone, which he though he did with me. Whenever they leave you nothing else in the world hurts that much at that moment. I feel so horrible about breaking someones heart. I do, but I wasnt very happy. ..
:( Poor him.
